There seems to be a chasm between how you really feel and how you think you should feel. When someone uses the adjective stable three times in one sentence, I deduce they feel anything but. How can I move on or end things without revealing the truth ? I know these people probably wouldn’t like me as me, but I feel trapped in my current relationship. After a while I deleted the account and thought I was done with it, but the memories are still there. I talked extensively with a few people, though of course couldn’t meet them or the game would be up. I felt like all the praise for my looks, nature and personality were directed at me, not this character I had created.
I haven’t felt joy in the way I did receiving hundreds of messages from potential suitors since I don’t know when.